Thursday, November 18, 2010

Just another mellow day ...

So, I broke some bones this week. Seems to be about par with the type of year it's been. So many folks we know have had a less-than-wonderful year ... heck, a downright BAD year.

I'd like to say that I wish this year had never even happened. I'd like to say this year was the worst ever. I'd like to say I wish I could forget this year. However, there were good moments ... and experiences that have changed me forever. The best we can do is roll like the waves on the Great lake. Tempest-torn and tired, grey -- we still roll on. Perhaps next time we'll wash up on a friendlier shore.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

The amazing human body

If life had gone as planned, I'd have a two week-old newborn ... or thereabouts. Instead, I'm seven weeks postpartum. Milestones that would have been pass quietly.

It's amazing how resilient the human body can be and, at the same time, how much of a slave our bodies are to our own mind. At first, I could hardly breathe. My mind would wander to images of tiny feet and toes that would never be used to walk. It would imagine the first-day-of-schools that would never come. The breath would flow out of my lungs and fight to return. The mind is truly a powerful creature and can makes slaves of us all.

Now those breathless moments come a bit less frequently, but they're still a constant companion -- there, just waiting in the wings to once again make me a slave.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Hot, hot, hot ...

Guess it's hot here, eh? The heat index here is currently 90 degrees. Yes, compared to other places we've lived this isn't too bad. However, when your office has no A/C and your windows face the afternoon sun .... At least the A/C in the house will feel great when I get home.

A warm, dark (trying to keep the lights off to reduce heat) office in the afternoon really makes the idea of a nap very attractive. Of course, that means I have an afternoon meeting with a faculty member today. Yay! She's very nice, but the idea of being here late into a hot afternoon doesn't do much to increase my motivation. My last post talked about complaints, so I guess I shouldn't complain today. However, I'm just not feeling very motivated now to get any work done. It's warm, I'm tired (mentally and physically), and I just don't care about work all that much right now. Of course, I NEED to care about work now -- our online program begins very soon and there's tons to do. My thoughts --- Oh, well.

This afternoon Katie's remembrance tree was planted outside my office building on campus. The folks in my department got together and had the university plant the tree -- it's some sort of coniferous tree. I'll post a picture at some point. This was a very nice gesture. This way we will always be able to see the tree since we work on campus. I hope it grows tall and strong for many years to come.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Annoyances and Complaints

So, I did not suffer a miscarriage. I can't speak to what that feels like. I carried Katie for almost 8 1/2 months. I think this is not the same as a miscarriage.

I'm trying to figure out how to exercise again and my body doesn't want to cooperate. When searching online for information/advice about exercising after pregnancy I've encountered TONS of information. However, almost all deal with how to fit exercise into the schedule of a new baby. Others talk about not worrying about exercise at this point -- telling me to treasure this time with my newborn because I can always exercise later.

I'm also annoyed that just going back to work and sitting at a desk has completely worn me out. I don't like that feeling -- especially when it comes from just sitting at a desk.

Seeing pregnant 16 year-olds bugs me more than ever. I know accidents happen in life, but come on.

Mostly, I am annoyed that I'm complaining so much. Ug.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Kaitlyn Elizabeth Middlebrook entered the world quietly on July 13, 2010. We'll see you soon, Katie-bug.

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Shoes

OK, so it's been awhile. A LOT has happened in the last almost-year. I doubt anyone is even reading this goofy thing any more.

At any rate, I think I've decided what this blog needs...

... shoes. New shoes. Perhaps it should even be dedicated to shoes.

I like that idea.